March 6, 2011

I wasn't able to go to church this morning. I am still feeling really bad. I am watching the BYU channel and I hope that I can get something of importance out of it. I love my Heavenly Father and I am so grateful for the ways HE has us to learn of Him. I wish I could fight harder I don't want to fail this probationary state. I am so tired all of the time and my abdomen hurts all of time. I just wish I could quit complaining so much. I find that the unknown is harder to deal with than the knowing. I am looking forward to moving into Chris and Tisha's old house. I want to get it organized so I can have people over and share my things with them. I am sure that Janet will be happy when we aren't in her ward. I am sure she will be able to grow more without me there. I ask Heavenly Father to help her become strong so when He calls me home she can endure it. I love my children and their families very much and appreciate them. I miss Chris and Tisha a lot but I know they are happy where they are. Janet has invited me to go to Safford with them next weekend to visit Chris and Tisha I think I will go with them. I need to keep my mind off things that I don't have control of so going with them will be a good thing. I am going to bed now.